V is for Visa, Visa is for Visakha

Great news, we’ve managed to sort out the visa situation, finally getting a cogent explanation from someone in charge. It reminds me a lot of the postal situation here; absurd requirements, fines, and restrictions, until you learn from someone with their head on straight how it works, and then it is perfectly reasonable.

So, tomorrow, our two applicants will get three-month visas, near the end of which they will be able to apply for one-year extensions. This seems quite reasonable, and I am assured that the applicants do not need to leave the country.

So, two full-fledged samaneri and samanera ordinations are on for May 5th at the Ekayana Magga Aranya, which happens to be Visakha Puja (Vesak) in Sri Lanka. If you’re in the area, or even if you’re not, all are welcome to join and take part in the joyous occasion.

Also, just another reminder that we’ll be away in meditation from May 8th to 31st, so Monk Radio, etc. will be put on hold – everyone needs a break :)

take these saffron robes
ancient banners of sainthood
blowing in the wind

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Visn’t

Still no resolution on the visa situation, besides the unwelcome one of having our students return to their home countries before getting visas to ordain.  Another try (our fourth) next Monday.

Went to see Bhante Anoma yesterday, a nice visit, though short.  He may be visiting soon to bring doors and windows for the rooms above me.

The two new rooms are coming along well.  Plastering now, then flooring, and finally the bathrooms, windows and doors. 

Depending on the visa situation, there will be either a novice or an anagarika ordination on May 5th – stay tuned for an update next week.

light through two small holes
bony bars and blood-smeared walls
jail of a body

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April Showers

…bring May flowers?

Being born in May makes me conceited about that saying, though this year if the showers are any indication, the flowers must be dreadful. The past two nights we’ve lost a pump, a dozen lightbulbs, a fan, a breaker, and the adapter to our Internet router, all to the lightning. Yep, it’s really that bad. Worse, actually, but you have to be here to believe it. The rain is certainly welcome, but the lightning is putting a bit of a damper on things… or rather our tardiness in unplugging the entire monastery from the grid before the lightning hits. At least the Internet router still works, and we had a spare adapter that seems to work with it.

What else? We’re off to Thailand May 8th, hopefully making it to Chom Tong on the 9th. No return ticket yet, but the plan is to stay a few weeks there. I’m not so keen to leave this place for too long now; there’s too much happening here.

Visas are still a bummer; we’re hoping that going to Thailand will be enough to get visas for Yasa and Sumedha, but no guarantee yet.

Sponsorship for two new rooms came this week after almost giving up on the hopes of the promise being fulfilled. We hope to have the two rooms ready by the rainy season… the other rainy season, that is.

Tomorrow we’re taking an impromptu trip to Anuradhapura, in the hopes of getting a Bodhi tree sapling.

Four Sinhala meditators came, three from the same family, two are still here. It’s nice to finally have some contact with local meditators, and they are all quite keen and sincere, so it reaffirms the good feeling we all have about this country. Hopefully the country has the same good feeling about us; so far the only obstacles we’ve had are in regards to the Bhikkhuni ordination and attire. These are serious issues, but for a post of their own, maybe next week.

All is well; our ship is sailing, we have a good crew, and the Buddha as our captain, his Dhamma as our navigator. As to the dangers on the ocean of samsara, it’s all but an illusion.

how they quarrel on
angry, spiteful, don’t they see?
none of them exist!

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Lucky Day

Today is the new year, or tomorrow is, depending who we listen to… Friday the 13th too.

The-yogi-formerly-known-as-Jens arrived this week, and has taken up the role of groundskeeper; he and Manju have begun work on one of the more slippery forest paths and took measurements for the new kuti windows. He’s shaved his head and taken on a new name for ordination purposes, Yasa.

Some busyness with the visas; big people offering to help, others threatening to not help, and neither of our monks-to-be have the proper visas to convert to a residence visa. Monday we try to go to sort it out.

Either way, the plan is to ordain both Sumedha and Yasa on May 5th, which is Visakha Puja by (most) Sri Lankan reckoning. Anyone in the area is welcome to attend and rejoice in the dual occasion. The ordination may only be an anagarika ordination, depending on the results of our visa efforts. If they are able to get residence visas, we will ordain them as novices, otherwise they will have to return to their home countries first to apply for entry visas. Anyone with connections in the government of Sri Lanka wanting to help out would be most appreciated.

The rain is back, bringing with it fierce lightning storms but a welcome cooling of the daily temperature as well. It has also brought water, of course, which our thirsty well appreciates. The new well digging seems still far off, though promises of coming to dig are still plentiful. In the meantime, I took the time to figure out how an automatic cut-off mechanism works and hot-wire our main water tank. Much benefit to that – no more turning on the pump to fill the tanks, no more waiting for the tanks to overflow before turning it off, no more running out of water, no more overheating the pump.

days and nights go by
taking us closer to death
where are you going?

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Out With The Old, In With… More Of The Old?

The more things change, the more they stay the same, so the saying goes.  Worth keeping in mind; in the world of sankhara, the new is ever as the old.  On the other hand, this is what Buddhism attempts to address, in a sense; we strive for the unattained, a goal of extreme profundity, given the incalculable span and diversity of our existence.

In this sense, true change is to be welcome; more of the same would be just more samsara.

Much is changing here in new ways.  But first, some sad news; Nagasena is no more.  Maybe one day he will rise from the ashes with a new name and new robes, but the fire there is out now. It was a long time coming, but he disrobed on Monday, with the idea of finding greener pastures elsewhere.  May he find contentment.

So much for the old.  New news, though, is in the many people who have come together from around the world to work together on our organization.  I just want to say thanks and let it be known the burden-sharing is much appreciated, and will allow me to dedicate more time to teaching and less to administrating. 

This feels like something truly new, a system in place that will run itself and support a global teaching platform with sirimangalo.org as its base.  The potential for goodness is immense; may it come to fruition!

More new, we will replace a disenfranchised male novice with a super gung-ho female novice – Sumedha will always stick in my mind as the only one brave enough to complete our meditation on the roof during a lightning storm.  Today finished her all-night meditation for a second night, and said she hasn’t showered in a week.  Hardcore.

It’s new enough to ordain a male novice, but a female one?  I can hear the criticism already; I’ve heard it many times before.  What started with accusations when the first woman yogi came here to meditate (it was said we were sleeping together in the caves – true enough, her in one, me in another) may easily escalate into a full-scale scandal.

Never being one for prudence, however, I’m focused on the greatness of ordaining people who are keen for it.  The trip with Nagasena, though, has made me pause a bit, and we’ve agreed to make things a little clearer with Sumedha, like if we ordain you and get you a long-term visa, we do expect you to stay ordained and, yes, practice according to our teachings.

The moment I arrived in Sri Lanka marked a new chapter in my life; it gave me the hope that maybe I could find a culture that would accept me and which I would find acceptable.  After all the trouble with the aristocratic Thai and American cowboy cultures, I was truly in doubt.  Now, with everything coming together and very little standing in the way (save the unknown future), it’s hard not to feel some encouragement that maybe, just maybe, something new will be born from this samsaric mass of all that is old and rehashed.

On that note, a double haiku (a haitwo) to make up for missing last week’s:

old, tired, broken
clinging in desperation
mind makes new the old

bright, shiny and new
out of the ordinary
mind that clings no more

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March Update

So, things are coming together in keeping the organization running; there is some coordination going on between the non-profit and the monastery, which should see the monastery regain its ability to finance the meditation centre. A budget is now up at the Org.Sirimangalo site, for anyone who is interested, though it probably should be converted to USD, still.

There is some indication, though, that the non-profit in America will have to be either reorganized or abandoned, since the people looking after it have moved on and are no longer involved in our activities. If anyone in America is able to take up the task of running the non-profit (basically filing documents with the IRS once a year), it would make a huge difference in helping the organization receive and use donations for the centre here.

In other news, the entire Sirimangalo.Org website has now moved to the cloud. I’m still not sure exactly what that means, except that it’s much faster now. Much thanks go to Peter for his kindness in sponsoring the server and helping us through the harrowing experience of moving 10 years and 20+ GB worth of data through cyberspace.

The last of our funded construction projects is almost finished; a bathroom for the two rooms above where I am staying – one of the rooms is occupied by Nagasena, so he will be happy.

Sumedha (ex-Meredith) is doing a review course, trying to let go of the excitement of her impending novice ordination – quite a task :) At the end of the month, we’ll try to get her a visa, otherwise she will have to go to Thailand. I might go to Thailand anyway, to teach and visit Ajaan Tong, and Nagasena would like to go as well, so there may be a trip brewing for May.

Other projects have been slowed by the organizational issues and a minor cold virus that probably has something to do with the workload. So, many things will have to wait. Still memorizing the Bhikkhuni patimokkha and a little bit of book editing. Hopefully those will pick up now as the organization gets organized, and I can get back to teaching.

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There Is Too Such Thing As A Free Lunch

Recently I heard that abominable phrase, “there ain’t no such thing as a free lunch”, turned into an equally abominable internet acronym.  Yep, TANSTAAFL.

It’s not so simple, really, to answer the question whether there is such thing as a free lunch in an ultimate sense.  Even when we give charity, we generally possess expectations of getting something in return.  Often there is at the least an expectation of gratitude, or that the recipient will make some specific “proper” use of the gift.  Still, I would say that there is indeed such thing as a free lunch; it is central to the concept of charity in Buddhism; that we eventually are able to give as a natural expression of purity, not even expecting peace of mind as a result.

I think this idea goes quite against our general understanding of Buddhist principles, and even much of the Buddha’s teaching itself – when we read the suttas, we hear often about the benefits of giving, and when studying karma in general, we understand that good deeds are only good because of the benefit that they bring.  There is, however, a very important exception to all of this, and that is the example of the enlightened being.  An enlightened being is completely free from karma, both good and bad.  This means that any good deeds they perform spring from this natural expression of purity, without any special thought or intention in regards to the consequences.

This is how I’ve come to view this curious affair of teaching and spreading the Buddha’s teaching.  There seems to be no other rational answer; it must be done, there is no way to avoid it, yet the imperative comes not from volition or expectation, but simply from the fact that it is right to do; natural, in a sense.  A person without any attachments must act appropriately in every situation; they have no choice, they are unable to do something inappropriate, being devoid of the requisite delusion.  So the only answer to the Buddha’s acquiescence to teach “those with little dust in their eyes” is that it was the proper thing to do, given the existence of a request.  And while we are not most of us striving to become Buddhas, we are certainly intent upon at least the purity of mind that frees us from expectations.  Given that this must extend to all of our activities, including our charity to others, it seems necessary to accept that TITSTAAFL.

Why I’m thinking about such things is because of my previous blog post about the future of our organzation.  The whole issue of organization, much of which revolves around the concepts of giving, receiving, exchanging and paying, has brought up some interesting issues, one of which is determining the correct system of resource exchange, or what might have otherwise been termed “economy”.  Except I think economy is the wrong word, for reasons I’d like to explain here.

I can think of three different types of resource exchange that might be chosen as a system of maintaining an organization, be it a business or non-profit or some other coordinated system of activity:

1) a reciprocative system – one where every resource has a value, and there is an expectation of remuneration or exchange of resources in every transaction based on their respective values;

2) a prociprocative system – one where every resource has a value, but rather than an expectation of exchange, there is an expectation of “paying it forward”, i.e.  the second party giving benefit similar to that received from the first party to a third party;

3) an allocative system – one where every resource has a value, and resources are distributed based solely on need; a person needing much is given much, regardless of what they themselves give in return; a person who needs little may find themselves giving much and getting little or nothing in return.

The first system is irrational; I can’t see how it could be sustainable in any sphere of activity, since it does not address the core issue of need.  A person seeking something out, be it material requisites or spiritual guidance, does so either because they have some need or because they have some desire.  Where need is the basis for the transaction, it is irrational to insert an unrelated factor of price, since it has nothing to do with the initiation of the transaction.  Even in cases where the giving of resources creates need for the donor, there is no logical reason to expect that those needs be met by the donee.  Sometimes it is convenient that there be such an exchange, when each party’s resources correspond to the other’s needs, but that is really just the coincidence of two unrelated one-way transactions; the needs are not intrinsically related.

What this means, to be a little less wordy, is that selling dhamma is no good.  Charging for courses is no good.  It is irrational.  One should only sell things if one wants money.  If one’s intention in giving things is not to make money, one should not sell things.  Even when one needs money to give things, it is illogical to expect that the one who receives should be the one who pays.  The result of charging for anything is a disruption of the flow of resources; those who need much often go without; those who need little often gorge themselves senselessly.  Charging for meditation teachings, courses, etc.  would be counterproductive to the aim of giving to those who need.

The second system seems better but is still irrational.  It’s great if people do pay something forward; given that they received some benefit, they would be hypocritical if they didn’t give such benefit to others who asked.  Nonetheless, there are two problems with this system; first, that the system does not adequately address needs, and that there still arises the problem of unrelated expectations.

By not adequately addressing needs, I mean that since every obtainment of benefit requires a previous obtainment of benefit, transactions don’t initiate based on needs.  In times of great need, if there is no donee looking to become a donor, needs are not met.  As to the expectation of prociprocation (yes, I made that word up – it comes from procus procus rather than recus procus) itself, it is again an irrational requirement, having nothing to do with the need at hand.

In the case at hand, we can see this problem at work.  By telling people to pay the meditation teachings they’ve gained forward (i.e.  teach others as they have been taught) and not care for the meditation centre’s future, the needs of the organization are not met and the system soon collapses.  This doesn’t mean that teaching others is a waste of energy, but it is not sufficient for the continuation of the Buddha Sasana; paying it forward does not work to address the needs of the system.

So, in essence, I would argue that the only lunch that makes sense is a free one.  If someone needs something, they should get it from someone who has it; that, to me, is logical.  People come to us looking for something; they should get it.  Sometimes we are looking for something; that too should be provided for.  Of course, in an imperfect world, one may very well not get what is needed, but to set up a system that by its very nature cultivates  rather than addresses needs is no way to run an organization.

So, the third system seems most reasonable.  It is the least like an economy, though maybe you could call it socialist or even communist.  Whatever, it is a system that is designed to address need; or more simply, it is designed to solve issues directly.  I think, therefore, it is most in line with Buddhist principles of acting appropriately rather than with expectations.  It is the system of giving free lunches to the hungry simply because it is considered appropriate to give free food to someone who is in need of food.  I would even go so far as to say that it can be considered appropriate to give one’s own lunch simply because another needs it, even though it seems to violate the principle of fulfilling needs; since, however, sacrifice for others doesn’t create greater need, and more importantly because needs vary among people (i.e.  a beggar who has been starving for days needs lunch more than a well-fed business man), I think it still fits within this system.

So, this is how I would like to approach the issue of spreading the dhamma, and organizing our activities in the future.  This doesn’t mean that we can and will continue as we have regardless of the support for our activities, it means that where there is need, that need must be addressed.  When someone is in need of the teachings, someone should do their best to provide teachings free of charge, not with any thought of how that person might benefit oneself.  When there is need for other resources to allow the teachings to be given, there should likewise be someone to provide for that need.

So, with this in mind, I want to engage everyone in our community, confirming the needs that exist within our organization – by which I mean the organized system including everyone involved, from simple meditators, to those who have taken a pro-active interest in the workings of Sirimangalo International, to the monastic community here at our forest monastery.  I’ve set up a new sub-domain, org.sirimangalo.org, based on the discussion forum thread about this issue, and would like to encourage everyone to get involved.  There is a real need for it; not for me or the other monastics here, but for the organization, and more importantly, for all the people who benefit from the resources on this website.  We will continue to provide free dhamma where ever we are – I don’t think it is possible to escape that fact even if we wanted to, but that is all we can provide.  Others too must provide the needed resources that they possess, be they material or mental.

We can only give what we have, and what we here have is limited very much to the Buddha’s teaching.  We have no money, no land, no possessions beyond our robes and bowl.  All of the tools and resources we use to teach are the responsibility of our students.  Not because they owe it to us, but because they have it, and it is needed.  A good example of this sort of idea is the alms round.  At first glance, it appears to be a reciprocal relationship; we give the teaching, they give the food.  But on closer inspection, one can see this is not the case at all.  We never give teachings based on who has given us food, nor do we get food only from those whom we have taught.  When and where there is a need for teaching, we teach.  When and where there is a need for food, food is given.  Maybe we at times give teachings out of the expectation of receiving food, or maybe others give us food with expectation that we will teach them, but ultimately those expectations are not the reason for the existence of the almsround; eventually those expectations fade away and alms and teachings alike are given simply because it’s the proper thing to do; simply as an expression of purity, and because there is a need for food and a need for teaching.

So, we must focus our efforts on addressing needs.  As I said already, I think our monastic community has very few needs; we need our free lunch from the village, a place to stay and robes to wear.  These are our needs; when there is more, we try our best to be open about it, without expectation, as I have tried to be on my own “wishlist”, as inaptly titled as it is.  In this way, I can happily say that we have no needs at this time, and are in general quite free from need as a community.  As to the needs of the organization, including both our meditation centre and the maintenance of this website, there are other needs.  Monetarily, there is approximately $300 per month that needs to be raised to keep the centre running and provide an Internet connection for our on-line activities; there is the maintenance of this website; there is the participation in organizing on-line sessions and activities; there is the dissemination of this sort of information, and so on.  There is a need for all of this.

When I wrote my last blog post, I wasn’t sure if these needs would be met, or whether we would have to turn away those in need of what we offer.  Now I think it’s clear that, while there is  need, there is also generosity; many people have already expressed their interest in giving what help they can, and many who are appreciative of the work that goes on here.  We all should gain from this community, and we all should give to this community as well.   We should not think that we are here just to gain or just to give; we should not think that we must give if we have gained or gained if we have given.  When there is need of a lunch, we should give it freely.  When we need a lunch, we should take it, also freely, without guilt.  Let’s prove to the world that TITSTAAFL.

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The Future

Over the past year, something quite wonderful has grown out of the craziness of this life on Earth.

The website I originally set up on behalf of my teacher while still living in Chiang Mai, Thailand has in this short time become something quite remarkable. Sure, it has evolved many times over the years, following me around the world when no one else at Chom Tong was interested in the name “sirimangalo” – the foreign department wanted “ajarntong.com” and the monastery wanted “chomtong.com”, so I was stuck with “sirimangalo.org”. But this past year, with the experiment started at ask.sirimangalo.org and continued with my.sirimangalo.org, it really has taken on a life of its own. ask.sirimangalo.org now has over 3,000 questions and answers, a phenomenal amount if you consider its relative infancy. my.sirimangalo.org, with a name that sounds decidedly unBuddhist (but one must admit is catchy), has become a hub of activity for people following our meditation teachings at home and those looking to come to our centre to practice and even ordain. forum.sirimangalo.org, a recent addition, is already on its way to becoming a laid-back alternative to the more formal Q&A format of ask.siri (“ask siri” is the number one Google query driving people to our site, btw – it has caused some confusion at the other end as well, as per this forum post). Then of course, there is radio.sirimangalo.org, home of our weekly live broadcast session where we give refuge and precepts, and answer questions, sometimes for two hours or more.

All this is what has come from the genuine interest we all share in the Buddha’s teaching, and an interest to share what we have gained with others. It is something that has brought happiness to a great many people, myself included, and is surely something we can all feel good about having been a part of its growth from infancy to a mature and harmonious community spanning 43 countries (counting only those who have selected their country in their user profile) and cultivating an amazing level of comprehension of the teachings of our tradition, as well as an impressive ability to pass that learning on to new members. Everyone who has participated deserves much gratitude from our organization, making our work of disseminating the Buddha’s teaching far easier and more effective than we ever could have accomplished alone here in our forest.

The forest, as well, has changed around us in the past year. Never before have I seen such wonderful physical manifestation of hard work and dedication to the continuation of the Buddha’s teaching. We have restored what was a more-or-less abandoned forest hermitage into a lively and growing meditation centre; a mammoth three story complex that still amazes me; how did we get that into the jungle? Four rooms, four bathrooms, and a (soon to be roofed) meditation area on top, reaching almost to the Bodhi tree on top of the rocks against which the building is set. And around the monastery, the new kitchen, stairs, bathrooms, the list goes on. The success can be measured in how much use we’ve already got out of all the projects, which is to say a great success indeed.

So, this is where we stand, looking back at the past. But this post is not meant to be about the past; it is meant to pose questions about the future. Specifically, the future of our organization, our monastery, our website, and of course the international community of which we are all now a part. All of this started based on a specific set of circumstances – one might even blame my arrest in California back in 2009 and subsequent fear of going outside wearing monks robes, which started the Second Life videos and eventually Ask A Monk; at any rate, those circumstances have changed now. Sri Lanka is a wonderful country; I haven’t felt so at peace with my surroundings since I was a young child in the forests of Manitoulin Island. It is not, however, on par with places like North Hollywood in terms of things like Internet access or monastic affluence – and yes, that is part of what makes it such a peaceful place, for sure.

The question now is whether we can meld the old with the new. Sirimangalo International, the California non-profit originally set up to start a meditation centre in America, is now more-or-less defunct, its president (me) living on the other side of the world, without regular contact with the rest of the board. The organization was most useful in helping build our monastery, and has continued to fund our website and cloud-based server (for Monk Radio) via PayPal, but it is a long ways away from our present place of activity, and the only way for it to support our monastery is via grant request, which somehow doesn’t seem like something a monk should engage in :)

The grant that built the bulk of the monastery is used up now; other generous support for the building projects went to its respective ends in what we hope was proper use for it. Now, all that is left is for us to maintain what we have built. The question we have been asking ourselves recently is whether the bed that we have made for ourselves is one in which we can lie, or whether we have bit off more than we can chew. When I was teaching in Hot (Chiang Mai province, Thailand), we were in a similar situation; very little local support, too new to expect much foreign support, and several meditators either with us or on their way to us. The Burmese nun with whom I worked told me we either had to start asking meditators to support the centre or we had to shut the centre down. My reply was, “then we shut the centre down.” I believed, and still believe today, quite strongly in helping others from the heart, with no strings attached. If someone comes to us for food, they should get a free lunch. If they come to us for meditation, they should get meditation without any thought that they might be expected to give something in return besides respect and gratitude.

The next day in Hot, we received a donation that allowed us to continue providing food for the meditators and, in the end, there was always just enough support to get by, but these words come back to me often, especially now that there is so much more involved in the work of teaching that I do – a video camera, a computer, a website, Internet connections, etc. on the computer side; workers wages, electricity bills, water pumps, wells and filters on the monastery side. And especially since I am now in a country whose language I don’t speak beyond basic sentences, and in an area whose people are not so well off that they can support our monastery beyond as a place for them to come for veneration of the Buddha and Bodhi tree.

Can we continue? Can we shut down? Neither has a clear answer; sometimes I think I would be better off doing this work in a more developed country, surrounded by modern conveniences and the relative affluence necessary to continue the work reassured of its success. Yesterday, Manju and I climbed out on the the rock ledge to fix a short circuited main power line – he tugging one end, me tugging the other, tying a knot in the wire, crimping the thick copper cords together, taping it up, climbing back to safety before the rain came. We don’t have the resources to get a new power line. I’m not complaining, it was great fun, and is very much a part of the monastic life. The point is, it’s a bit incongruous with the extra-monastic work of Sirimangalo International; without that power line, no Internet. Without Internet, no website (or yes website until it crashes and no one is there to bring it back on line), no contact with meditators, or even with our own families whose acceptance of what we do is often conditional on our ability to contact them.

And as for running a meditation centre, no power means no water. Our water supply itself is another issue. As monastics, we can deal with hardship without much difficulty. We can carry water from the river, boil it for drinking, etc. These sort of activities don’t jive so well with an international meditation centre, where people who have lived their whole lives in cities have to become accustomed to drinking water that either tastes like ashes or contains e. coli bacteria, and where it needs to be boiled constantly to feed it to them – firewood alone is an issue of its own. Again, this isn’t meant to sound whiny, or even pleading. I’m not writing this to ask for support, just air my thoughts and share them with those in the blogsphere around me, which is what a weblog is for, I think; maybe sometime soon this too will end.

Nor do I want to sound like we don’t have support. We’ve had incredible support over the past year. The problem, really, and it is a problem endemic of international meditation centres in general, is that we have no base. There is no “dayakasabha” as they call it here, a group of lay supporters taking care of all worldly concerns of running the centre, both administratively and financially. Support comes from lone individuals sending care packages (bless you all, they have been put to good use) or moneygrams to our treasurer. It’s heartwarming to see people one has never met express such appreciation in one’s work, but it can never be a substantial support for a meditation centre.

I don’t think the monastics here would have much difficulty giving this all up and focusing on our own development; this is part of where the impetus to write this post comes from. It’s hard to fathom just turning out the lights on the website, but really, it would make things quite easy for us. The villagers here are more than generous sharing their food, and beyond simple requisites we need very little to survive. Manju’s salary and the Internet and electricity bills complicate things :) The question I am exploring is whether shutting down our operations can or should be done.

So, I am sort of interested in hearing some thoughts on this as well. I imagine a great amount of response will be from those not involved with our community, who will say yes, give it all up, get on with the real task of purifying your own mind! I’m interested in hearing such things; after all, it would be more difficult to hear many voices telling us to continue this work that seems more and more incongruous with our current state of affairs. I suppose a part of me is wondering whether there is a way to coordinate our international community in such a way that it can help keep the centre going. The idea of a resident steward/meditator who handles financial affairs and works without salary has been floated around, as an example, but the visa situation for a foreigner in that position is uncertain.

What will the future bring? Maybe I can learn enough Sinhala to begin to coordinate with the people here in order to help the centre run smoothly? Maybe we will begin to hold more courses abroad, networking with Buddhists around the world on a physical level, such that we can coordinate with an International community? Or maybe soon we will have to buckle down and radically change our sphere of activity to an immediate surrounding. Even thinking about it casually brings up much doubt, given our status as foreigners in this country without a sponsoring monastic body. We would probably have to disperse and find places where support for things like visas and international communication is more readily available. Not ideal, but something to be open to.

Ideally, we would be able to continue to live our simple lives with basic personal requisites and at the same time come to terms with the modern reality of spreading the Dhamma to the Internet generation. Whether this ideal awaits us, only the future can tell.

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Visas, Monks and Such

The bhikkhuni and the samanera finally got residence visas, after a tense showdown with an immigration official. It seems like we were just shuffled along from one person to another until finally we arrived at this man who basically told us he wasn’t prepared to issue the visa. After a tense moment, he wrote a note, sent us off to the immigration commission himself who, after confirming that we were here to practice meditation (luckily I had some of the How To Meditate booklets on me), gave the clearance and the visas were assured. But it looks like this will be a one-time event; applicants for ordination will now be required to get pre-approval before entering the country in order to get a proper visa. Since we can’t preapprove people we don’t know, this means you have to come, practice, leave, get a visa, come back, ordain. Bummer.

Still a few applicants for ordination; Meredith is almost ready and can probably ordain as a novice at the end of the month. Others coming in May, June, etc.

Just finished editing the first chapter of the book; not sure if I should post them online as they are finished; it probably needs at least two more rounds of editing to be publishable, so maybe better to wait. Hopefully the rate of editing can increase, but then so many other pressing tasks…

The railing on the slab is finished, soon we’ll be starting on the roof; someone offered to tile the floor and make a wall around the Bodhi tree. We had hoped to complete all of that with the funds available, but the slab itself was more expensive than expected, so it is nice to see there is still support coming. Anyway, the slab has proved most useful for our morning and evening sessions – the monkeys seem to agree.

Next month may be a month off from things Internet; still other projects like memorizing the Bhikkhuni patimokkha, editing the book, and a meditation retreat or two. Maybe going to Thailand in May; more on that if it comes about.

jumping, playing games
never quiet never still
monkey of a mind

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Books That Write Themselves and Other Wonders

So, in preparation for the book project, I thought to find a way to organize the questions and answers on our ask forum into a single file. The result is an actual e-book made up of the best answers to all the questions on the site, and can be downloaded in PDF form or viewed in HTML form, at the following links:

http://ask.sirimangalo.org/book

http://ask.sirimangalo.org/book.pdf

So, a book that writes itself; and hopefully some of this content we can include in the actual book once it takes shape. The project so far seems to be writing itself as well, with 17 chapters already written – transcribed by the wonderful community at sirimangalo.org. It’s really been an encouragement, thank you all for your help. Of course there is still much work at this end, editing and rewriting the spoken talks into lesson format, but it’s a real headstart to have so much help.

Meditated in the rain for the first time this week; it was interesting, especially when lightning struck a few miles away; really gave meaning to the Buddha’s words on mindfulness of death – that we should be mindful of it at every moment, for it could be our last.

Our monastery is growing, slowly; Meredith arrived and is in meditation. Her intention is to become a Bhikkhuni; Samaneri ordination will be easy anyway, and we’ll see from there. More applications for meditation and ordination; the interest so far is quite encouraging, even at this early stage in our centre’s growth. Some Sri Lankan friends from America have offered to arrange the expenses of finishing the two upstairs rooms, so if that comes through we should have lots of room for everyone.

A small building project started today, much more modest than before; a railing for the roof area, so we don’t risk falling off during walking meditation. Still need to make railings for some of the more treacherous stairs, but this is a good start.

Monday we go to Colombo to see about visas for Nagasena and Phalanyani.

Oh, and we have a new discussion forum set up at http://forum.sirimangalo.org/ if that is of interest.

writing down one’s thoughts
catch them as they disappear
echos of the mind

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